Heartbreak

I'm so depressed, I broke up with my boyfriend about a month ago and we stayed friends and still fucked and went out and said I love you to eachother. He still took me out but we just weren't "together". Which I was fine with but overtime I started getting really depressed, Bc I didn't have him the way I want him, and he was still talking to other girls. Today we decided to not talk anymore Bc it's really hurting me. We dated for about 2 years btw. Now I'm just so heart broken, just the fact that I won't see him or talk to him hurts me but talking to him hurts me as well, it's so confusing and I'm just a dam mess.