Epiphany

I... I think I just had an epiphany. I’ve been with 2 girls and many guys my whole life. When I’ve been with girls I’ve been so happy. So completely content. And when I’ve been with men I’ve been told that I’m angry mean and cold. Could I be behaving this way because I’m subconsciously avoiding the truth that I am In fact happier with women... idkkk opinions? My current bf is literally amazing. But I’m still miserable. When I was with my ex gf I was so happy. Help.