HES BEEN LYING TO ME FOR YEARS

I’ve been best friends with this guy for three years now. Whenever we hangout he always wants to get starbucks. he usually makes a big mess in my house and stuff... he hangs out with girls that are REALLY mean. Like very very mean they have a big group about hating me it’s that bad. and for no reason. they sit shame me even thought i don’t do “slutty” things. i used to hang out with these people that always joked with the guy i’ve been besties with for three years saying “oh you’re gay haha” and he would laugh too. it cake to a point where (the guy let’s call him C) C said “You can’t hang out with them anymore” so, me being his best friend i did that.

But wait... he hangs out with girls that PHYSICALLY and EMOTIONALLY hurt me... i’ve asked him not to hangout with them because it makes me embarrassed. he even calls them his best friend. he just laughs when i say those girls are mean. he laughs and mocks me.

when i was depressed and i asked him for help he mocked me and made jokes about me.

there is this other girl (let’s call her H), she’s always been by my side. told everyone i’m her bestie. left people that are mean to me without me even asking... i’ve known her for three years. i’ve noticed that SHE has been my best friend all this time and i haven’t been such a good friend to her and i feel horrible. i feel horrible because she almost died last week and all of a sudden i’ve noticed that shes my best friend. not C. i’ve noticed C has always slut shamed me, always made a huge mess in my house, always begs for my mom to buy him starbucks...

i just wanna know if i’m thinking right: i think hes been using me to get info to those mean girls.. and using me for starbucks and for the fun of trashing my nice house.

am i being ridiculous?

he also asked me to buy him a really expensive beanie... but he never ever buys me anything. i always buy him a gift.