I still wanna be a kid 😖

Tonight I’m freaking out. I don’t feel like I’m ready to be a mom. I just got married and we got pregnant so fast.

I feel caged. No judgement pls: not being able to drink to let off steam has been a HUGE change for me. I usually have 1-2 small drinks after work. Now, I’m restricted and have no control over anything. Sleeping has been really hard. I’ve been able to control my life for the past 15 years. Now it’s not just up to me. Plus my husband won’t even allow for ‘a glass of wine’

See I’m a horrible parent already.

I’m not ready for this.