Failure

I’m a failure. A disappointment. I dint even see why i try because no matter what i still fail. My best is never good enough. And if i don’t get through college then my life is over because i can’t go to the military and i have no talent. I don’t even know why i exist because i have no purpose here. Life sucks. I want to die. I’ll never be happy. Also everyone is fake even family. They talk shit about me all day but then act like we all cool at the end. Guys only see me as a piece of meat. They only wanna fuck. I’ve never had a boyfriend. Because guys only wanna fuck n i won’t let em. I’m 20 years old and i still have to ask permission to go out i can’t watch what i want on tv without being judged. I’m not even allowed to watch Suicide Squad. Idk why i even exist my life is pointless and I’m just a failure. I wish nothing more than to just disappear as if i never existed or was even born.