why me

what was I thinking man !!!?? this pregnancy is so ducking hard and my "husband " doesn't make it any easier to day I found out I lost a bunch of weight and I'm malnourished because my baby girl won't let me eat any of it ...do you think he understands what I'm going threw ? NO ... I have no energy no food can't even sip water without throwing up and he is no help .....I get hungry and try to eat do you think when I ask he goes ? no he doesn't he will make himself something and forget about what I ask for then go about his business as If he doesn't know if I say I can eat I need to eat ...SMH we have been together 6 years and married 3 months I think we should've stayed boyfriend and girlfriend because if I wasn't lonely before I very lonely know the only people taking care of me is my 3 and 6 year old kids I'm hurting I'm sick IM HUNGRY !!!! AND TIRED UGGGHHH