Ugh...terrified!!!

I’ve been with my bf for well over 3 years. There has been ups and down, but we always seem to keep going. I see him Thursdays-Sunday’s, so when I do see him, we usually have sex about every 2-3 days. HOWEVER, we haven’t had sex for 6 days. We did oral things about 4 days ago, but that was it. He told me he was too tired to have sex after he ate me out for an hour. The next day he got like two pumps in, but realized he wasn’t in the mood and stopped.

I was disappointed because obv I want the D, but I know I can’t force him. In August of this year, we went through a HARD break (our first and last ever). We didn’t have sex for over a week and every day we didn’t he would tell me we eventually will. he just told me one day he wasn’t sure how he felt about me anymore. We ended up ending the break 2 DAYS in & we as good as ever.

I’m actually glad we decided to do that, because it made us stronger. THAT is why I am so terrified that it’ll happen again. I’m an over thinker, so my bf has been telling me that we’ll do it soon & that he still finds me attractive, wants to do me, etc. Hes so confident we’ll do it that’s he’s been joking saying he’s going to mock me after he proves me wrong.

But at the same time I’m TERRIFIED that something might happen. He vowed to always tell me if there’s even a hint that something is wrong. We do have these hiccups once in a while where we won’t do it for a week, but get right back into it. He just started a new job and has been working out every day, as opposed to 2 or 3 times a week. Should I even stress about this??? I just want my mans D 😩 it thought with all the teasing he’s been doing this week that he would just want to do it already...but he hasn’t