my birth story! 😳😲😲

so little back story. when I had my 1st child I got the epidural extremely fast towards the end it kinda wore off. all I remember is awful pressure and being so tired it was hard to push. ( 36 hour labor) she's 6 now.

last year I lost a baby @20 weeks and found out I had some infertility issues. we started treatments and got pregnant 2nd cycle.

November 27th 39 weeks I was induced at 8 pm. with this one I wanted to labor natural untill about 7cm get the epidural so I didn't have to feel the awful pushing part,that's what scares me the most.

I was already a 3 when I get to the hospital so I was started right away on pitocin. it was a long process. It took me 8 hours to get to a 4. Finally they started bumping up pitocin. The contractions weren't bad and I was breezing right threw. the nurse came in and stretched me to a 6 and my water broke. things really started to move. I made it to a 7 like I wanted and called for the medicine, he gets there 5 Minutes later at this point contractions are really coming in it's hard to sit still.

he puts the epidural in a does it wrong!! I instantly start screaming and crying it was a sharp shooting pain down my spine to my leg. he does it again and gets it right contractions gone. at this point I'm at a 8 and so tired, it's about 11 the next day with no sleep. anyways about 10 minutes later I tell the nurse I feel pressure and it was so very painful she says there's no way checks me and says I'm at a 9 before she could even walk away I tell her the baby is coming.

yep I was a 10 and start pushing, in the middle of pushing my breath is taking away by the most awful burning sensation ever. literally feels like my lady parts where on fire!!! I'm freaking out never felt that and wasn't expecting to. it's the baby's head then I can actually feel myself ripping I'm freaking the fuck out.

I begged for a c section. I cussed, cried, screamed. Everytime I'm stopped pushing she's go back up.

guys I'm such a loser 😭I was freaking out. I was asking why the epidural wasn't working they said only a few woman can't feel birth. finally I grabbed my legs a scremed and she came out. 8 pounds 1 oz with a nice big round head. I cried so hard she was perfect. they stitched me up for about 35 minutes I had second degree tears in different places. the whole thing freaked me out. lol. honestly made me question if I want a 3rd. of course I do but damn. anyways that's all baby's crying good luck to you. all