Feeling down, and need opinions

Is it bad to keep a baby after the guy you’re pregnant by tells you to get rid of it? Because he isn’t ready for another child (he has a son from a previous relationship) and that we can wait and do this at a different time. He says I trapped him because I wasn’t on bc which he knew, I haven’t been on it in a very long time. I just feel hurt because I have known him for 7 years and I truly thought he would be happy but him saying to get an abortion really hurt me. And now I feel like me keeping the baby is a bad thing and that I’m a bad person for wanting to keep the baby.. i already had my first ultrasound and I was so happy and excited to see that little heart beat.. and now I just feel so lost.. am I wrong for wanting to keep the baby and just do this on my own?