Scared/Hurt/Confused

Normally, I would talk to my best friend about this, but she’s in rehab right now so...my parents just got into a fight. They’re saying they’re going to get divorced, but they’ve said that before so I don’t know if it’ll actually happen. I wish it would. I’m so tired of all the fighting, and my dad always tries to bring me into it, which has deeply strained our relationship. My mom doesn’t think she makes enough money to support herself on her own and I think that’s the only thing stopping her. He’s absolutely unbearable to be around. He has been emotionally abusing her for years. Random anger outbursts, name-calling, breaking things, spying, blaming her for everything wrong in his life, etc. He blows up if she disagrees with him or says something slightly critical. It hasn’t been fun to watch her go through this. I’m hoping this time it’ll be true. This time, she’ll finally be done with him. Tonight, he started to blame me for the problems in their marriage. It really hurt even though I know it’s not true. I don’t even know what I’m trying to say, just had to get my feelings out. ☹️