Feeling so discouraged about everything now that I have to get my own health insurance

I lose my parents coverage this year, so I’m at marketplace pricing my own. Supposedly my husband and I make “too much” to get a tax break discount which is 65000 a year combined. And he works 60 damn hours to make even that much money. I’m only getting insurance for myself, and will pay for it myself. The cheapest plan I have to pay 257 a month! BUT I have to hit a 3000 deductible before I even tap Into benefits. 3000! That’s was low! Other plans were 7000. I would honestly go without if we weren’t ttc. But even so, my plans days the out of pocket costs for a healthy pregnancy will be around 6000. So 257 monthly, have to pay 3000 cash first, then insurance will split costs with me but I’ll still wind up paying another 3000 more. I’m about to leave the United States and move to Mexico with hubbys family. Our healthcare is REDICULOUS!