After IUI #3

This has been one of the most heart wrenching and mentally exhausting things I’ve ever gone through. From finding out my egg reserve was incredibly low, to being prodded and poked, to all of the crazy fertility drugs which made me gain 15-20 pounds, to the 2 failed IUIs before today it has been one of the hardest journeys I could’ve ever imagined. For all of it, I’m entirely grateful. I’ve met and talked to so many incredible women who have shared their pain, experience, and sorrows about fertility and infertility. I have learned what strength is by hearing other women’s struggles and triumphs. I know that there are people out there that do life so much better than I.

Honestly, a part of me thought maybe I’d never be able to see that second line appear. I started thinking having kids wasn’t in the cards for us. I’ve had to practice the acceptance of that reality. It’s been so incredibly hard. I’ve shed so many tears, had so many sleepless nights, and days when I couldn’t get out of bed.

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​I’m not special, and I haven’t done anything that all of you ladies don’t already do. I don’t deserve a baby over anyone else.

​But today I’m going to enjoy this. It’s a day I have waited a lifetime for. To all women still trying...don’t give up hope. I love you and appreciate you and the hardships of your journey. I’m praying for each and every one of you 🙏🏻