Please tell me I am not alone...

AF was due yesterday and today still no sign. The only symptom I've noticed is tender breasts, which could as be a sign that AF is on her way. I'm afraid to test, I don't want to feel defeated or see that BFN I've seen soooo many times before. But I'm trying to stay hopeful and positive for some reason this time feels different. I've been trusting in God completely. I didn't track every single moment of my life after my last cycle and I actually focused on making love to hubby again instead thinking about convincing the entire time. I want a BFP...nothing would make me more happy. Sorry for the long post just needed to vent. Can anyone relate? Does any have a similar story with a happy ending? Would you test now if you were in my shoes? Thanks everyone in advance.