Just About Done With Men. Tired.

I'm not one of the lucky ones. I guess Ive always had a broken picker. I got married at 19 and had 2 kids to an absolute nightmare (abusive in every way but physical, didnt want to work, cheater, refused to participate in any family activities, acted ashamed of me, wasn't loving at all, always hanging out somewhere). That relationship ended with him falling in love with a co-worker 20 years older than us and me having to walk away with 2 young kids. Had some more relationships that had issues and now I'm 34, pregnant and having deja vu. Current one is immature, a heavy drinker, hangs out all the time, has friends over all the time. We don't do anything really as a couple, has already been abusive when drinking...I remember this feeling I had when I was young. Like my man would rather be somewhere else/anywhere else but home with me. And it ended up with him cheating. Its almost 2am on a Tuesday and the current one is "drinking at a buddy's house". Im 34 weeks pregnant. WTF?!? I am beyond tired especially when I know there are men out there who don't act this way. I have had other relationships where I didnt have to wonder where the man was at 2am. I'd like that again someday. It's like I only get pregnant by men who can't respect me. I'm tired of worrying about being cheated on. Tired of struggling with men who really don't to want to settle down. It all takes too much energy. Now I'll be a single mom x3 because I don't think I want to ever do this again. 😞