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when I was 5 or 6 my family and I went to schlitterbahn and I loved the wave pool.... I would spend like 2hours just going around it over and over because of how big the waves were and I remember I was in my tube and fell out because I tipped myself over when a wave came and this random guy came and put his hand on my vagina and left it there and he had a camera in the other hand and basically just had both is hand with the camera and his other hand around my crotch and I didn't say anything or do anything I just left the wave pool and asked my stepmother and dad if we could go to a different part of the park then I few years later I was 9 my then step-dad molested me I fell asleep on the couch and he took me to their room threw a sheet over my face took my pants off and cut my underwear off he didn't know I had woken up and I don't know exactly what happened but I just remember hearing pictures taken and him sticking something wet down there (don't remember if it was in me or what I just remember it becoming wet) I waited a year to tell someone and I remember going to 4 different therapists in which basically they all either side I was lying or told whatever I said to my dad and stepmom so ever since then I hate talking about my feelings or just talking in general ... once we moved with my dad I was i believe in 8th grade so like 13 14 years old we went back to schlitterbahn because no one knew what happened and still doesn't and this boy decided to keep grabbing my ass so I left... then comes high-school I was headed to my French class and this guy basically rubs his hand across my vagina while I'm walking to class and he's leaving the class (I just saw recently that he died in car accident and can't help but feel like not so much that he had it coming but I'm just kind of like whatever about it while everyone else is so distraught) no one knows about that either another time during high school I had just broken up with a bf of mine at the time and was walking/talking with this guy who I found attractive and he pulls me towards the women's restroom and starts trying to unbuttoned my blouse and stick his hand down my pants and I just kept trying to push him off and finally he let me go and I left avoided him to rest of the time I was at that high school .... I was 15/16 and I wanted to move back in with my mom I knew she was still with my step-dad but I didn't care cause I know she had been brainwashed by him and if something were to happen I know I would have fought back this time ... it was just me my sister and him and we playing the or something where he was chasing us and I ran into their room and he closed the door and locked it and got on top of me and was holding me down I started screaming at my sister telling her to do whatever she had to bust open the door and he looked at me a said if you don't believe quiet im going to tie you up and that's when I knew what would have happened if I didn't keep fighting so I screamed louder and finally he got off of me and I took my sister and ran out the door.... I never told my mom because she didn't need to know any of this .... and to this day she still doesn't I have no resent towards my mom but I do know that I have such a hard time talking about anything especially how I'm feeling and I know when my fiance and I get married I'm going to have such a hard time writing my vows .... the purpose of all this was to ask how do you go about talking to someone again to try and work these things out when you trust no one?