Really hard to stay positive

I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks. The due date was supposed to be New Year’s Day... in two days. I was praying for my BFP for our rainbow baby that day so I didn’t have to suffer through a horribly depressing day. Instead, AF decided to show today, two days early... and I’m never early. On top of that, my 11 year old daughter stumbled upon my pregnancy tests and her reaction was horrible. She was crying and kept saying she doesn’t want things to change anymore (she’s gone through a lot in her short life). So... now I have to go through another period, heading into month #13 of TTC after two miscarriages and my daughter knows our business. She’s typical preteen and has no filter, so now I have to live with the stress of constantly worrying that she’s going to tell someone. We don’t want anyone to know that we are trying and no one knows that I was ever pregnant. Not going to be ringing in the new year on a happy note