I feel so conflicted

So right now I'm flunking all my classes which is totally my fault and I know it. But it's partially because I don't want to be here and I just want to work while my husband goes to school for the next 3 years. I plan on being a mother and if I do end up with a degree I don't care to use it. I understand how smart it is to get one at least as a precaution but i am not happy with how things are. I tend to be a perfectionist and so I either need to provide for a while or go to school and my husband just can't seem to find a job (that's a whole other issue) I don't know if I want advice or just to vent. I guess if you have productive advice then you can say it, please no judgments, I get enough from my whole family, thanks guys.