Don't really know what I'm feeling(rant)

Had a mc last year.. Wasn't trying for the pregnancy so I don't really remember symptoms until I found out and had bad nausea. But that whole time I had weird guy feelings like I was going to miscarry and sure enough I did. Now I'm pregnant again, first time a year later. Got my bfp on a digital Friday morning. And I don't really know how I feel. Usually I have a gut instinct and it's always right. I've had some cramping the last few days. No blood so I'm taking it as a good sign. I don't know if what happened on the last is clouding my judgment. I'm trying not to worry or anything and just stay positive. But I find myself going to the bathroom a lot to check to see if there's blood. Can't call my doctor to schedule my first appointment until Tuesday morning. Seems so far away, and then I'm gonna have to wait For my actual appointment. I'm just praying this is it and everything is healthy. But I'm so scared that I want this so bad.