Am I like really weird/crazy or is this normal...?

Okay so this might be a little long but oh well so when I was single I was really lonely so I basically...god this is gonna sound weird...but I kinda pretended I had a boyfriend like...in my mind like.... I was lonely af😂 And like it probably wasn’t healthy but like I’d cuddle with my pillow and pretend it was a guy sorta thing...Firstly is this weird or normal😂 Okay so second part of the story is that I got a boyfriend so since I had him (even though we don’t live together or see each other much) I thought the weird thing that I did would go away because now I have someone to for fill that like hole and I did stop doing it for a while but then I started doing it again like I’d pretend I’d be cuddling another guy in my bed but for a different reason this time...I’d basically go off in a different world (usually of a tv show) and cuddle with this made up guy to forget how much I miss my boyfriend....Fuck I sound insane but has anyone else done this...? Or anything like it?😂