I need a place to vent and tell my story. Any encouragement or advice is appreciated.

My husband works out of town all week and is only home on weekends. I take care of our two girls alone. When he would come home, we would fight because he never wanted to do anything fun with me and the girls. I felt like I wasn't a priority. That money and chores were always more important than I was.

In November, I saw a lawyer and asked for a divorce. He freaked out. Called me a cunt. A bitch. Threatened to take the girls away from me. (Because I'm a stay at home mom and he has a good job). He broke some things in our garage and burned our wedding photo we had in the living room.

He calmed down and apologized. Asked to do counseling (which I had been asking for for months) said he would never say anything like that to me ever again.

I decided to try to get along through the holidays, the girls deserved a good Christmas.

Yesterday, I decided I couldn't do it anymore. My heart wasn't in it. I didn't love him the way a wife should love her husband. So I told him I wasn't happy still, that I hadn't been happy.

He went out to the bar last night, got home drunk. I found messages he has been sending girls on Instagram since 2016! Random messages like, "I know you don't know me but damn! Date night?" And "you're amazing and gorgeous"

When I confronted him, he called me a fucking psycho, a cunt, a bitch, said I was retarded.

Fast forward to this morning, he doesn't remember a thing.

We decided that I would move out for a while, I'm moving in with my parents and I'm taking our daughters with. We will split time with them though and try to spend time together on the weekends as a family. We will also continue marriage counseling.

I'm so hurt. Has anyone else been in a similar position? How would you feel/what would you do in mine? Would you leave or try to work it out?

He's been begging me to stay and work on things..I'm so torn.