Today I feel so down..

I lost my baby girl April 2017 and I miss her so much 😔 I honestly don’t know how I made it so far without her. My heart is so heavy right now. Sometimes I wonder why us? Why do mothers have to go through this pain ?

Anything can trigger this pain and when it happens it’s a waterfall of tears and emotional pain.

My boyfriends sisters daughter just turned 1 years old and we were invited to her party. I was okay with going at first until I had to go pick baby clothes for her. I’m an emotional wreck right now. I didn’t go to the party. His sister told my boyfriend to just leave me at home and take a bus to the party.. which hurt me so much. He didn’t go either cause he didn’t feel right buying baby girl clothes.

I feel so alone ...