I’m so sad to say this

I just need to vent.. my SO and I have decided to put ttc on hold :( we’ve been financially ready but we just realized waiting would be better. Our current 4 year old is in preschool for just 3 hours a day and next year he will be doing the same. So we’d rather time it so the new baby would be here after he goes off to kindergarten. We’d also like to wait until after our summer vacation so I wouldn’t have to travel pregnant. We’re also getting married in dec so it’s just best to wait. Idk how to explain it.. I’m ok with the decision but it still sucks and it won’t stop the baby fever 😭