sadness

Have you ever just wanted to cry????? Like lay down and just weep??? I've been trying my HARDEST to not feel this pain and sadness but its not working. I pray and I try to occupy myself but how do you isolate your thoughts??? How do you silence your own inner voice and demons??? I just need someone to talk to, to cry to, someone who understands but won't judge me and give me some cereal box philosophy.......