TTC Rant!...

So my SO & I have been ttc for 6mos...7 if af shows 6/12 but the problem now is I feel so alone in this. He's always disappointed & upset when af shows up but when I agreed this month to really step it up & take better care of my body it seems he may have changed his mind... We went to Walmart & I started talking baby business picking up items I'd need to help further chances of a bfp but before I could get halfway to the checkout counter he's reasoning why I should wait to buy them. I don't understand...

To top it all off I've been stressed every day just about...low stress levels but that's not the point. Thoughts of ttc,bfn/bfp,pregnancy consuming me...so many what if's... What if we don't conceive this year or next? It's overwhelming thinking about all the negative tests results & false symptoms...wanting to be pregnant so badly your body is fooled 😔😢😧 Tired but hopeful