weird...

so today I told my fiance that I wanted to get that before he went to work he said okay then got in the shower... after his shower he says well come on if you want it.. so since we TTC I went back and used preseed and waited for him to come back to the bedroom.. he came back I started giving him head and it wouldn't get hard.. 😳😳 okay so I tried a few other things that I usually do and nothing worked.. he says it's that Ed!! and laughed (he doesn't have Ed.. ) finally so I wasn't laughing at him I covered my face and much to my surprise he got hard and finished the job.. like ohh that was a real confidence booster right there. then hiding my cracking voice I was like oh you just don't like having sex with me... without skipping a beat or missing anything he said bullshit I love it just have a lot going on right now.. (which he does.. car broke down, lost his best friend, worried about money cause he stayed home from work yesterday...) so I kinda got it but it kinda really hurt me too.. like you can't get hard looking at my face? I mean I'm not super ugly.. I don't think.