looks like I'm out

im just done and fed up... there goes the discouragement on my chart. all i ever wanted in this world was a baby. i know i would be a great mother. i have a baby named picked out and everything. i play around with my fiance and use the babys name as if our baby is already here because i can't wait. but im tired of working hard each month just to get to the next month of working harder. im tired of crying because i feel like its never going to happen for me. i have pcos im almost 30 years old and my left tube is blocked. been ttc for over 10 years. never pregnant or ever had a vvfl or miscarriage. i have done test, a laparoscopy, tried clomid, im tryin premama this month, i chart, i do everything to show God that

im tryin on my end. I pray all the time and i have so much faith in God but im just losing hope. so after this and when af shows her ugly face or i have to wait for my cycle to start because i have irregular periods im just goin to stop trying im done. im not givin up on faith because i trust God and know hes working on my blessing of my baby and for me to be a mom. but for now i wana accept that its just not gona happen any time soon. im tired of being stressed and emotionally cant do it no more its more of a workout and chore and routine and just to be able to record that i had sex so i have more of a chance when all along none of this has helped. i just hope and pray my day will come. but good luck and God bless and baby dust to all u ladies🙏👶🌟

thanx for taking the time out to read and comment. and sorry for being so long i didnt think this was gona n into a long rant and im not trying to be negative just gona give this roller coaster a rest but deep down i know i cant.... only time will tell i guess