Can’t find myself..

Hey guys...

I’ve been struggling for a few years with anxiety and depression which has led me into a downward spiral.

I gained 60 pounds, lost friends (friendship and death), dealt with a lot of shit and continue to be in college (somehow)

I’ve been trying so hard lately to be positive and happier but it’s driving me nuts how it happens in such fast waves. One day I’ll be super upbeat, happy and ready to go then the next minute I hate life, how I look, what I’m doing.

Within everyday this happens and it’s such a vicious cycle that kills me cause I feel like I can never get off of the rollercoaster ride. I can’t seem to find a way out and it’s starting to suffocate me.

What can I do?? I’m losing so much hope.