Overweight with an ED

So it took my forever to realize something was actually wrong. That hating yourself, every single inch. Every single feature and piece of yourself wasn’t normal. That thinking about food and how many calories are in what and how many is too many or too few. Weighing yourself before and after every bite of food and every sip of a drink or in different clothes or at different times. I thought this was all normal. And that there was no way that a 200 pound whale could have an eating disorder. Turns out I was wrong. I lost 100 pounds two years ago and kept all of I but 20 pounds off. So why do I feel 5x bigger and more worthless now than I did then? I just feel like a huge disgusting waste of space.