Confused and conflicted

Sasha

I’ve been really struggling with my weight lately.

I really want to be small but I have such a hard time losing weight.

Sometimes it gets so bad that I can’t eat or I cry when I eat.

I had to turn down my favorite food my grandma makes bc it’ll make me fat.

I wanna make myself puke but I’m afraid and I can’t starve myself because I’m so weak that when I see food I eat it...idk what to do.

I feel awful.