Trouble with parents.....

Ok so I’ve been just really sad and depressed lately and just looking at my boyfriends friends girlfriends and they’ve got it all figured out and look good and everything, I graduated last year and I still don’t have a job and I feel gross when I look at my body and I just want to get my life going already besides going to school. So my boyfriend talked to me about getting an apartment together, keep in mind we’ve been together for four years and I’m so ready to take that step but I live with my parents and they definitely would not approve of me moving out but yet my mom moved out the house when she was 18 to be with my dad. I love them and all but I honestly can’t take the emotional and verbal abuse like they stopped the physical abuse but it just hurts when they tare me up inside and they get mad when I show no emotion or when I keep to myself or when I have no confidence but like they have made me feel so low at times that throughout the years I’ve honestly just lost all confidence and faith in myself. My boyfriend makes me so happy and he’s helping me look for jobs and helping me save my money since I always blow it and just all in all he’s my supportive rock and I am going to move in with him I just don’t know when or how I’m going to tell my parents and I hope they don’t disown me or anything because all I ever do is for their liking or approval, I just want to get my life started and not be stuck in the dark feeding off of them. Sorry this is just all over the place I just don’t wanna tell anyone about how I feel.