I need advice... really bad.

I'm so lost... 😞😞 I'm in high school and I've been suspended and sent to alternative school for being caught having sex in the bathroom... which at the time they caught me... I wasn't having sex I was getting tissue. And the boy I was doing that with got in trouble... and I feel so bad. I didn't care about me getting in trouble I just didn't want him to😖 and today is his birthday too and I feel like I ruined his life... and he cried.. I've never seen him cry and I liked him and that hurt me even more. I wanted to get pregnant.. and I think I did. I took a pregnancy test and there was a really faint line and there was another one on the other one I took.. then I was 4 days late on my period and then it hit me like a truck... and I bled more than I ever have for almost 2 weeks.. then this happened...😞💔💔. I'm so depressed. I honestly never think I'll find love again or get that adorable little girl or boy I dreamed of. that's hurting me so much. I've had so much happen to me in life.. I've been raped, lost my first love and honestly... I was ready to be a mom. and I'm really young but I'm more mature than many... I'm just ughhh😞😞💔