38 years old and down Bc if miscarriage

We were pregnant in December and had a miscarriage at 8 weeks (supposed to be 9) it was our first pregnancy I had a D&C; on 12/15 and my cycle returned on 1/12... was really hoping this would be the month I would get pregnant again but to my terrible surprise I am spotting now (am due tomorrow) so there’s that. I’m losing hope. We did it 3 times during fertile window and thought that might be enough as it was the first time we got pregnant ... we got preg within 3 months fairly quick. I just want to be a mom

And my time is running out, I never thought I would have a miscarriage and I have no health or medical issues. Just really didn’t want my cycle to return this month. This whole process is just so frustrating and depressing I wanna cry. If anyone has hd any positive stories to share after miscarriage please do share I could use some hope right now.