The way I love him😍

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So yesterday night I just started to think about my feelings about my boyfriend 😩😩 ughhh guys I really do love this mann it’s just crazy😫 not once in my whole life I would I thought I would end up with him he is my high school crush lol I been with him for a year now and woah it’s be an amazing one we just fit perfectly together and I love his family and they love me 😬 he makes me have emotions that I never thought I had in my life before.. before I was with him my life was at a downward spiral my emotions were all over the place i didn’t wanna be around people he just uplifted everything 😩 and I know in my heart and soul I’m ment to be with him and marry him some day ☺️ it’s this unexplainable feeling but all Ik is that it feels so good to be happy he is really a blessing🙏 and I’m. So grateful for him every single day it feels amazing to be loved back and wanted the same exact way you want and love someone.. it’s crazy bc I met him when I was a freshman in high school I was that shy girl he was the new kid every girl wanted and was one of them “cool” kids he never really gave anyone the time of day bc he was enjoying life as a teen and was very honest ....... but anyways six years later and we’re together for a year and two months and are both happier then ever we even talk about someday getting married but it’s crazy how I know that he’s the one I never ever said that about any of the guys I was with in my past that’s how Ik it’s real😩 and he feels the same way about me it’s just crazy even though I’m 20 about to be 21 and he’s 21 about to be 22 I kno I love him and my mom has her opinions about it she says I’m still “young” and sometimes try to put doubt in my head PS-(she has never met him nor spoke to him personally she doesn’t even kno how he is like or wants to kno) but I kno in my heart this is the person that god has intended me to be with and have a future with😩 it’s just that when I stare into his eyes I just see pure love and affection and it’s the most powerful feeling in the world I cannot begin to imagine life with out him by my side I think I’ll go crazy 😩😩 I wouldn’t be the same

The first time I remember feeling like I actually love him was when we were in my school talking and the conversation was good there was always a flow but I remembered talking to him telling him that I didn’t know what I wanted and my feelings were all over the place but truly I knew I wanted to be with him I was just scared of getting hurt because I’ve been hurt so many times in the past I just couldn’t fall in love because of my fears I have been played in my other relationship I felt like I wasn’t worth shit I use to cry a lot every where.. people didn’t see the same happy joyful girl I use to be I use to be thinking imma just be alone for the rest of my life and I cried because I was so hurt I couldn’t believe I let these lil ass people make me feel like i wasn’t worth shit the reason I felt that was was because I kept being played with other females shit broke me I felt like I wasn’t pretty enough or thick enough like these other girls that’s the real reason why I hate my body so much I felt like I wasn’t even attractive enough to keep my own niggas that these hoes kept taking them I thought to myself if a guy who claimed that they cared about me wouldn’t hurt or afford to lose me.. but they did and I was a sucker and took them back over and over again not knowing it would hurt me more in the long run but I was completely damaged from the inside and I might not have looked like I was sad and depressed because I put on a brave face and smile but behind that smile was PAIN,insecurity, tears, depression and a whole lot of other shit but now NOW at this point and time of my life I learned a lot and it mostly came out of him he thought me what I was really worth and made me feel safe something I never once felt with any of my ex’s. He showed me that I was beautiful inside and out and that he really cares about me and our relationship and HE wouldn’t do anything to jeopardize what we have because we really have something special three years ago I wouldn’t never though ill ever be happy with someone who loves me for me and not have that temporary love ❤️ I just love him and just thinking about all this makes me tear up but yeah this is my favorite love story ever☺️