I don’t want pitty

Yesterday I had an emergency D&C.; When I went for my ultrasound there was no heartbeat and it was only 8 weeks... I’m sad I really wanted a baby. And I still want a baby, I just know that this wasn’t meant to be my baby. When we left the hospital I told my husband next time we’re leaving with a baby. I’m sad and disappointed that it happened but I have hope that the next pregnancy will be a keeper. I know it was nothing that I did I just feel that I had to go through this for some reason, maybe I’ll never know why, but it was the path I had to go down maybe to appreciate life more. I don’t know. The only positive take a way is I know I can get pregnant.

I could not have gotten through yesterday with out my amazing husband, I think after yesterday I love him even more.