Relationship

Back in November 2015, I met the sweetest guy. We talked nonstop and were very close friends and in December of 2015 that’s when we started dating. ❤️ He was like my dream guy and I was his dream girl 💭..How many months went by and then he started acting like a dick towards me. 😒 Then a little more time passed and he started getting more mean to me. Then I realized that he’s been chatting 🗣 with other girls behind my back. Like full on conversations saying stuff he’s never even said to me. I was kind of upset and he promised to not do it again❌ so I apologized to him thinking I maybe overreacted but no. I was wrong. I found out that one of the girls he talks to continuously comes over all the time when I went to work. So I stopped telling him when I had to work. 🕘 Was that wrong of me? I also found out a few weeks later that, that woman was also on his phone bill and paying for it and some other stuff for her. He even lets her use his vehicle all the time and never told me until I noticed it gone numerous of times. 🚙 Also, one day I came into his office and seen his computer screen and it was of half naked girls on a dating website 🌎...I asked why he was on that and he told me that he didn’t mean anything by it or he didn’t mean to hurt me by it. So, again, I forgave him. 😐 A few other times I caught him AGAIN on dating website...he said the same exact response as the first time.. 🙄 I, of course, forgave him 🙏🏻. He has a lot of days he hides his phone, turns down the screen brightness, holds the phone at an angle, etc, just so I can’t read what he types. 💬 He also hides it under his pillow at night 😴. Also, I’ve seen pictures of how many girls all over his gallery when he went to “show” me something 📱. Not to mention the couple times he beat the shit out of me when I didn’t do anything but told him how it upsets me the stuff he does in a nice way even..👊🏻 Every time I try talking usually he finds a way to make it my fault even if I was just stating something 😒. Like for an example, I said I needed help printing something because his printer has a code and he yelled at me to the point I was crying 😢. Whenever I talk about my feelings he turns it around on me ↪️ and makes me feel bad. He usually just ignores me through text or in person like I don’t even exist when I live with him 🏡 . He claims he is the “best boyfriend ever” and treats me like a princess 👑 but how can he claim that when I can’t even be happy, express my feelings, have a normal conversation, or get beat on?? He just figured buying my happiness is good enough, when it’s NOT. ❌ I don’t care about gifts or anything I just want to be in a real relationship. I get all relationships have problems but this just crosses the line. I’ve been trying to be able to leave him for good. 👋 but I can’t force myself to leave because in all honesty I have nobody really 😔 the only person I’m close to somewhat is my sister but she lives farther away and I work full time and go to college still. 📚..I’m so lost and wish I could leave. ..please help. 😶