Curious about girls...🙈

I'm in a long term relationship with my boyfriend but I've been fantasizing a lot about girls...

Here's a little story...

When I was in high school I hooked up with a couple of my best friends. We had just turned 18 and were on a school tour in Paris. 18 is legal to drink in France so we all got drunk and fooled around in the hotel room. We got really in to it and had sex... Even though none of us identified as bisexual or lesbian.

I think we were just pent up because the trip was 2 weeks long & we weren't allowed to bring guys back to the hotels 😅 And it wasn't a regular thing. But I have made out with other friends on a dare. Guys at school even paid us to let them watch me & my friends kiss 😬

Now I'm in college & I have a boyfriend but unfortunately he's not a very good kisser & he's kind of bad in bed... I keep thinking about that night with my friends in Paris and it just gets me so hot.

I don't want a threesome because I would get too jealous. But I kind of want my boyfriend to watch me & my friends fool around together. Idk about lesbian sex again, that's too intimate. But I just want to mess around, do some foreplay with another girl. Is that too weird? 😔

P.S. My birthday is in a few days & I want to make it a wild one 🙊🙈