Experiencing Very Little Emotions

So I am posting anon because it makes me more comfortable when asking questions on here. But since I was in 7th grade I felt like I was disassociated with my body (if that makes any sense) therefore the only emotions that I felt were anger and just neutrality. Senior year comes around and guess what I found my saving grace. A guy that I was interested and that was into me always made me happy and I came out of my funk. However, after graduation we lost contact and I was good for the rest of 2017.... until 2018 started. I only feel neutral and just neutral, no anger, no sadness, no happiness, just..... neutral. So there is this guy on my indoor soccer team that likes me and it is obvious that he does, but I am only feeling neutral, but when I talk to my friends trying to explain to them what I am feeling and my thought process, they say that I like him, but I'm just very confused and I don't want to feel neutral anymore. Do you have any suggestions? My schedule is also extremely busy and I never keep a journal or anything like that. I have homework and when I am not doing homework or working then I am sleeping. Still any suggestions? And i know that I won't get many responses, but I still want to feel better without going to a psychologist or therapy because I don't have enough money for that. Thanks to those of you that do respond it means a lot. Sorry to bother you guys.