My Valentines Day Feels Ruined

The first day of my last menstrual period was December 5, 2017 which marked me 10 weeks and 1 day today. I did a home pregnancy test after 17 days of being late on the 23rd; expected period was January 5, 2018. My very first positive pregnancy test EVER after 10 years of trying. I was scheduled for my first ultrasound today on Valentines Day and was so excited. I noticed pregnancy symptoms that first week.

As soon as my ultrasound began i felt something was wrong. Nothing distinguishable as a fetus... only this white blob. The sonographer after a while asked permission from specialist to give me a vaginal ultrasound.... same thing showed up. After a while the specialist came in to tell me that either i am just too early to detect anything, or i don’t have a living pregnancy or its an ectopic pregnancy.. i have to come back in two days to do another blood draw to check hCG levels ( 12 vials were pulled from me today) and in a week come back to do another ultrasound to see if things have progressed any. I feel so depressed i don’t know what to make of it. I did ovulate the END of December, maybe my conception occurred in late December or early January and that would make me only 5-6 weeks? Is that the reason why i could see my baby? Im really trying to be optimistic....

Sorry about the picture. Clinic didn’t allow pics or videos during exam. I had to sneek and take a quick pic after the sonographer left the room... any help?