Gender disappointment :/

I was convinced I was having a boy pretty much since I got pregnant. Like I have a 6 year old and I felt like I kept all his stuff for a reason and I was just meant to have boys. I went for my anatomy scan and they told me it is a girl. I feel horrible for being upset. I am happy she is healthy but I still can't shake the feeling it is a boy. I feel like I lost the baby I thought I had and now am starting the bonding process all over. I know it is crazy and I really wish I didn't feel this way. I'm trying to think more positively now. Hoping for another healthy 4 months 👍🏻👍🏻