I just need to say this

My parents are divorce and am pretty much the messenger for both of them and it sucks. The reason why is if it gets to me I start having a anxiety attack and I get upset and start to cry. I have Bad anxiety I do not take pills for it at all, And today my dad snap at me saying that me as his daughter need to get back in school. My reply was well one I don’t have a car, ( no drivers license and permit ) i don’t any money and am pretty much poor dad. All he says was well I have a phone so you call me and money that’s all on you. It made me upset cuz I get like very little money that goes toward bills and stuff that I need to pay off or get for me, but by the very end of what I can spend for me it’s like only $1 which makes me upset and like agh fuck me or I hate this part of life something good happen to me please. For right now I can’t even pay bills get my hygiene nuthing. Why ?? Why why is all I can say.