Words hurt

I will not ever let anyone bring me down with words again.

I spent years being brought down by somebody.

When I was pregnant I was “fat.”

If I died nobody would care.

My friends were fake and would eventually leave.

My family didn’t love me.

Everybody would be better off if I disappeared.

Talked about multiple girls that were “prettier than me.”

I was even told that nobody would want a teenage single mother.

And that’s not all I went through.

After all that I was left broken, I was left with no self confidence, I was at a super low point in my life.

I cried myself to sleep over a lot of it, it took me so long to gain even a little bit of my confidence back and years later I still struggle, I still stare at myself in the mirror and think that I’m “fat” or that I’m not “pretty” because I got to the point that I really do believe that about myself. I even suffer from anxiety and panic attacks from other things I had went through during that time that I won’t be getting into.

I was left with nothing, and he got to move on like nothing happened.

Like I said I still struggle with some of it, but I will never let anybody break me down like that again, I know the friends that I do have love me so much, heck the one that said “they would all leave” ended up being the one that left! I know my family loves me as well, if they didn’t they wouldn’t go out of their way to help me when I need it! And I’m really not worried about a guy “not wanting a teenage single mother” but I do know the RIGHT guy won’t care, he’ll love my child as much as he loves me.🤷🏻‍♀️ And I know if something were to happen to me people would care!

Words hurt.