At home mom

When I found out I was pregnant I stopped working because I was doing overnights at a gas station. I have an anxiety and depression disorder that was relatively controlled with the medication I was taking, but no longer taking because of the pregnancy. So now I'm home all day by myself. I feel guilty as hell because my boyfriend works hard every day as a mechanic and still comes home to fix cars for extra money. We are still struggling, but the thought of getting a job makes me want to instantly cry. Before anyone calls me lazy I was an assistant manager in training for my own store when I had a mental breakdown and ended up quitting last year. After that I just did cashier work, but people aren't really my strong point. I'd like to find a way to make money maybe from home or with data entry, minimal contact.. Maybe it's all just farfetched but I'm really struggling and it's hard to find help because no one seems to understand anxiety and depression. People just say "get help" but I was put in therapy when I was 4 when my parents got divorced, tested out a million different medications for years, self harmed (don't get me started on how that feeds into this because I'm constantly judged and don't say you don't because you do and I see you staring), was put in boarding school etc.. I haven't had a normal life and I don't expect to live one but how can I still make money to support my family???