“Friend”

Ok really long rant coming up that I’d appreciate yous reading. Also *TW*.

Ughhhhh I literally feel like killing this girl (sarah*), I’ve known her since 1st year (8 years now) and we’ve been best of friends and obviously had our fights but what friendships haven’t.

Ok so sarah’s approach (I dunno if this is the word) to friendships is so fucking annoying. When sarah does certain stuff to people it’s so ok to her but if someone did the exact same thing back to her she’d have a tantrum about how bitchy and stuff it is. When I had a massive fight with my best friend of 7 years back in February 2017, Sarah didn’t believe me about how toxic my then best friend was and Sarah stopped talking to me and then when Sarah had the fight with her Sarah came running back to me. I have a finsta (it’s on private and only let my very best friends who I trust with my life following me) I posted a picture with cleavage (not an unusual for me) with the caption ‘boobsRlife’ and Sarah texted me giving out to me about it and even though I understood it coming from her side (people could screenshot it etc) she couldn’t understand it from my side that I was happy to have it up and didn’t care if people screenshot it and kept giving out to me and stopped talking to me.

Now, the above is not what pissed me off recently and isn’t what inspired me to go on this rant.

In may 2017 I was raped. I’ve gone to guards, seeing a therapist etc and obviously a few of my friends know. I made a PRIVATE facebook event inviting the few friends that have been supportive to me since it happened. The event is just a little thing about getting a bit of food with the people that helped me and we’re supportive. Sarah messaged me asking why I made an event for ‘celebrating’ a year since it happened and that I’ve thanked people enough (bare in mind that I didn’t mention anything about thanking anyone) and that I should just ‘move on’. The event is really really important to me because I’m literally celebrating my life, I would not be alive today with the help and support of all my friends.

And I am litterally so fucking annoyed and heartbroken that someone who I thought would support me through this awful time in my life wound be so “whatever” about it.

I’m really sorry about this rant but I’m so so annoyed and heartbroken . Thank you for reading if you did.

(I changed the girls name*)