Venting

I’m not one to post on here, I normally just scroll through and read everyone’s advice, and helpful posts about things they may be going through. But tonight, I just need someone to talk t, and Vent too.

My husband and I got married in July 2017, and since then we have been trying for a baby. 2 months after we got engaged, my husbands brother and girlfriend got engaged, then they got married 3 months to the day after us. Her and I have had our ups and downs, but she’s my sister in law and I love her! Today at my MIL 50th birthday party, she announced that she is pregnant...

I am seriously so so happy for them!!! I’m so happy to get another niece/ nephew, but at the same time, I am so hurt that god hasn’t answered my prayer for a little one. I know it’s all in God’s hands, it’s out of my control, I completely get it... but all I have dreamed about since I was a child is being a mom. My husband doesn’t understand why I am hurting the way I am. I know it hasn’t even been that long of trying, but it feels like eternity. And then when she gets pregnant, and she has PCOS, it makes me feel like somethings wrong with me. I guess I just need someplace to vent, after I just spend an hr. In the shower sobbing. Now I just feel like an idiot, but I seriously can’t help it. If you have read this far, thank you. And I could use any prayers, good thoughts, baby dust, whatever you do, I could use some sent my way. Thank you so much ❤️