Scared of breastfeeding.

Emily • Working mom with loving SO and amazing 5 year old brat...I mean boy. Life isn't easy, but nothing worth it ever is.
I don't know if scared is the right word. It kinda grosses me out. I want to try it this time around, I wouldn't even consider attempting it with my first. I KNOW that's what these are for but boobs are a big part of sex for me so it just seems weird to have my child attached to them. I'm trying really hard to changey opinion and make it to breast feed this baby. I caught a lot of laughs for my opinion the first time around. And no, pumping doesn't make it better, I don't like the idea of anything coming out of there. Has anyone else had to overcome this? Am I really the only one?