Extremely hard...😭💔

I grew up always thinking I would never want children. Then here I am, 21 years old, married and doing well in life and all I want is to have a child with my husband. I never imagined I would have infertility issues, the women in my family have always gotten pregnant with ease. I never thought having an empty womb could leave such an empty whole in my heart. I never thought I feel pain like this if not being a mother. I didn't realize how much for some women being a mother is such a strong instinct. I just watched the most adorable video of a baby laughing and all I could do was cry because I want it to be me and my child laughing like the mother and son in the video. This pain is unreal and almost unbearable....