Before my husband and I got married we both wanted kids.

A few weeks ago we started talking seriously about stoping birth control and trying.

The more I imagined myself actually pregnant the more anxious I became and didn’t like the idea of having a baby.

Last week we ran out of condoms the same time I was ovulating. He really really wants a baby but the more I think about it, the more I think I might not actually want a baby. (At least not right now)

I asked him if we could wait a few more months as I don’t think I’m ready yet. But the truth is, I don’t think I’ll ever be ready.

He seemed a bit disappointed but said he was happy to wait.

Has anyone else felt this way and ended up changing their mind about having kids?

I always thought I would want kids but now I’m not sure.

I live with a severe anxiety and panic disorder as well as depression.

Could this be what is holding me back?

My mom and husband both say that no one is ready to be a parent and to just go for it and things will work itself out. But it’s just not that easy for me.

Any advice or words of wisdom from you lovely ladies would be greatly appreciated!