Need to get this off my chest

I’ve never told this story because it is the darkest and the most evil thing i had to encounter. At the hospital, when i was waiting to miscarry, i was crying and begging god to save my baby, a woman came in. I was surprised because she did not look like any of the sweet and kind nurses that were looking after me like i was their daughter. She introduced herself as a nun or something and told me represents our church. She said they had a priest in a hospital and christens babies if parents request this. I thought okay, maybe i will find some solace and started talking to her. But i was surprised because i have never heard that church christens babies at 15 weeks. They don’t do this in my country until it is considered stillbirth. She suddenly started to ask me questions like if i had any prior abortions. It was like she was looking for reasons to blame me. When i said no and this was my first pregnancy, her tone became softer. She went away but kept coming back to ask me if i was in pain or needed anything. Suddenly she comes in and says the most excruciating thing i’ve ever heard. “You know.. your baby still has a heartbeat and when he’s born, he’ll still be alive”. I started crying at this point because i imagined how my baby boy needed me and how he would die outside of my womb in a cold and unknown place. Then she continued while watching me suffer so much “we will try to christen him but if he dies too soon or while you are giving birth, he will go straight to hell because he won’t be Christian”’. Now this was the last drop, i calmly requested her to leave. I don’t believe any god would allow an unborn or just any baby to hell. Then weird thoughts entered my mind, like maybe she was from a cult or something. I asked the nurse if that woman was going to take my baby but they said no. After everything ended and i went back from d&c; (some tissue from the placenta was still left and i asked them to do this because i couldn’t take any more bleeding and pain) the nurses never told me if my son was born alive or not. I’m to this day thankful to them for doing so. i never, for a second believed her because my god is kind and represents love, not hate so he would not allow to send a baby to hell. But i just can not erase that horrible memory. Sorry it is too long, i just needed to tell someone