Do you ever just have that feeling?

That you know your going to start your period but you keep testing like a mad person anyways I just feel I want to be pregnant so bad that’s it’s not happening does that makes sense? I’m so frustrated and heartbroken i never thought it would be this hard to get pregnant with baby number technically 3 cause second pregnancy I had a miscarriage ugh someone send some positive hope my way cause I’m giving up 😫