I’m completely broken... I really need a friend...

My fiancé and I have been trying for over 2 years now... I’ve had 4 miscarriages after 7 weeks each time. I hear there heart beat and they are doing so good and doctors aren’t concerned at all but then out of no where I have a miscarriage again. My heart is completely broken... I’m so afraid to get pregnant again because I don’t want to fall in love again with this baby and have them ripped from me and destroy me even more. Every night I cry myself to sleep and I try to act as if nothing’s wrong but I’m completely broken.. is there anyone else who feels this way or felt this way and was actually able to get pregnant later on and have a baby. Please I need someone to talk to right now... I have no friends because I moved all the time growing up and my fiancé doesn’t really get it.